Hard to believe it’s been a month since my last chemo session. In some ways the time has passed quickly and in others it seems like only yesterday. I’ve been feeling good, my energy levels are better than a couple of weeks ago even if not quite back to normal. I noticed that I feel very quickly out of breath when running up the stairs and I haven’t yet managed to go for a run.
My right arm is still quite tense and painful as I stretch it and I guess my veins are going to take quite some time to recover from the drugs. My hair is still falling out – I would have expected hair growth to start roundabout now but I guess it’ll be a slow process.
As part of some of the lifestyle changes, I made an appointment with someone to come and measure electromagnetic waves in my flat. This is something my mother was especially keen to investigate, since she believed that the breast cancer could somehow be related to (time-wise) to me moving into my flat. It seems that in Germany, there are legal standards homes need to adhere to when it comes to radiation/ electro-magnetic fields etc. whereas this isn’t something that is widely known in the UK. It wasn’t easy to find someone but I came across Roy Riggs and booked an appointment for him to investigate the state of things in my home. He arrived with a number of devices that measured different things and took time to explain everything to me. Many people might think the whole thing is a hoax but I was reassured by some of the scientific explanations.
He reassured me that all levels were fine and there were no unhealthy levels of electromagnetic waves coming from the nearby station, my wifi router or any other places. At some point he used a dowser to identify energy fields that cause geopathic stress
generated by harmful earth rays (natural radiation that rises up through the earth and is distorted by weak electromagnetic fields created by underground streams, certain mineral concentrations and fault lines).
Interesting stuff. I had never heard of geopathic stress before and having done a bit of research, it seems that it’s being taken quite seriously in countries like Germany, Austria, France etc.
It seemed that there was an area in my bedroom which showed high levels of this stress and he recommended I either switch bedrooms or move my bed to a different position – a little difficult in the small bedroom. The general theory is that while we asleep our body should be resting so it can repair body cells, fight infections and absorb nutrients from food. But if we sleep in an area affected by geopathic stress, our body has to use all its energy just to keep its vital organs going. As a result our immune system becomes weakened. In the long term the stresses on our bodies will emerge as more serious conditions like MS, Chronic Fatigue, miscarriages and cancer. When he left my place, I decided that I had nothing to lose by switching my bed around and removing it out of this ‘zone’. I have to admit that since then I haven’t been sleeping particularly well but that might also be related to other factors. I’ll see how I get on.
Yesterday, I went to see my breast surgeon for a follow up and to set a date for surgery to exchange the temporary implant for a more permanent one. After our conversation, she checked both breasts and said that she felt something lumpy on the other side. My heart almost stopped. “Honestly I’m not worried but I’m going to send you for a quick ultrasound” were her words. As I sat waiting for the ultrasound, memories from last November came flooding back. My name came up and I entered the same little room and of course the same radiologist walked in to examine me. As he moved the device around, I asked him to share what he was looking at. After a thorough examination, he said that he couldn’t find anything malicious and he left the room. I broke down in tears of relief. I went back in to see Ms Hogben who again reassured me that everything was fine. My god, is this what it’s going to be like for future check-ups? I hope not. It took me a while to get over this experience. It all still feels so raw I guess.
On a lighter note, in the last four weeks I traveled to Barcelona twice for the weekend and it felt so good to get out of the UK, to go back to one of my favourite cities and ‘feel normal’ again. Prior to this episode, I wasn’t a keen flyer but I noticed how this has now shifted. It felt exciting to board a plane again, to be up in the air and to go places. My time in Barcelona was, as always, wonderful in every way. It was SO good to feel warm sunshine on my skin, to be outdoors, be by the sea and to just wonder around the streets looking up at the beautiful buildings. There’s a certain energy I feel in that city that I miss in London and I’m looking forward to spending more time there over coming weeks.